Ramblings of a Former Cave Dweller…

All my life I have believed I am here for reason. That reason being more than just taking up space and being a statistic of the world.

For most of my life, I believed that the search for that reason would be found in work, service groups, or some great cause. I was always searching for that one talent or “thing” that would create passion in my heart. I found writing to be something I enjoyed and I found that it was also a talent. Most of that talent was kept in the form of a journal but those entries had a tendency to cover my miserable days. I thought it to be cathartic but it only caused me to lament over the bad days more frequently than enjoy the good days. So I stopped writing.

I not only stopped writing, I stopped searching. I came to believe I was another statistic and went on my daily routine of work, home, family, and friends. I found a cave to dwell in as I entered a “settled” state of existence. The passion appeared to be extinguished but there was still a slow burning ember for I never really stopped asking, “Why I am here?”

Living a “settled” life of a cave dweller became an unsatisfying way to live. I didn’t necessarily want more but I did want something different. This time I turned the search inward and for the last 3-4 years I have been reading authors like Marc Gafni, Richard Carlson, Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer, and many others. Through these lovely spirits and those I have yet to read, I have come to believe that the reason I am here is not to be found as a human being in search of a particular spiritual experience but as a spiritual being living as Kristin Swinhart.

Today, anyone who looks from the outside into my world my see a cave dweller; going to my 40+ hour a week job, coming home to my not quite 500 square foot apartment, and spending time with family & friends. However there is one difference, I see my life from within and choose to express myself through this medium. Thus this day I declare that,